As I sit down to write this, I don't even know how to begin. 15 weeks pregnant seems so far along, so out-of-danger, so yay we're having a baby! I went to my regular appointment Monday, June 2. After waiting what seemed like the longest I have ever had to wait, I was called back to a room. The nurse came in with me, instructed me to lay down on the table, and she got the Doppler all ready. After about 5 minutes of her attempting to find the heartbeat, there is nothing. Another nurse is brought in to give it a try & she gets nothing either. To say I am freaking out about now is a big understatement. The whole time I am praying - "wrap your arms around me Jesus, give me a peace, don't let me freak out." I am escorted to the ultrasound room where it is revealed that my baby has no heartbeat, no movement, no anything. DEVASTATION sets in. How can this be happening?? I am 15 weeks pregnant!! I don't understand!
The truth is there is no explanation. We will never know what exactly happened to this little miracle that was with me for such a short time. I know that I am blessed to have even carried this baby for this long. I am blessed that God shared with me the miracle of life. I know that everything happens for a reason. God has a perfect plan for my life. I am mad, upset, confused, frustrated, so many things, but I still trust in Jesus. He will see me through this. He will carry our family through this loss, and he will bless us again.
17 comments:
I am so saddened to hear about the loss of your pregnancy. Please know that we're thinking about you and Chris. We know how much you were looking forward to having another child, and we're wishing you comfort and healing right now. Again, you're both in our prayers.
Your friends,
Hillary and Russell
Kane and I haven't stopped praying for you guys since we heard the news. We love each of you and will continue to lift you up. We are so sorry.
Love,
Katey
I can only say, you are right, God will see you through this loss and will bless your family again. He will bless your family for choosing to trust Him when you couldn't understand or accept what was happening. He can take whatever we're feeling and whatever we're saying to Him or screaming at Him or crying out to Him - He can take it. He understands broken hearts and can bring healing. My love and prayers are with you always. "B"
I am so sorry to hear your news, I will be praying for you.
Ging,
I am sooooo sorry this happened. I couldn't believe it when I got the call. We have been praying for comfort and peace for you guys. I cannot imagine what you are feeling. We will continue to pray for you, Chris, and little Warner. God is good, and I know that He has an awesome plan for your family!
We love ya!
lil roo,
we love you so much. your maturity is inspiring. seriously. this hurts so much! praise the Lord that we do not grieve as those without hope. keep calling out to the Good Shepherd. He has promised to never leave us or forsake us. boo pain and sorrow, but yay God! yay ginger! yay perfect plan!
aunt gib
Ginger,
I love you so much and am praying for you and your family. Brandie told me to tell you that she is too. We miss you.
meredith
Your love and spirit is amazing and i am overwhelmed by your strength. We are so sorry for your loss and have been and will continue to think about you your precious family everyday. Love you all...
ginger,
I am so so sorry to hear about your loss. Know that God has welcomed your little one into the giant playgroup that includes all the little ones who left us too early. My heart is heavy for you and your boys. We will be praying for you.
dear ones,
I am also praying with you and for you in this time of grief. My heart hurts with you. But, I know you are focusing on "the ONE" that can help you through this. God bless you. Ellen Johnston
Know that you're in our constant thoughts and prayers...your confidence in the goodness of God thru such a difficult time is truly a blessing and encouragement to us, Ginger! May His peace which passes all understanding be with the Lively's today and always. Love, J/S/J
These words always give me peace:
When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
I love y'all with all of my heart!
Rachel Scarbrough
Ginger,
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your baby. I am praying for you and your family!
love~
Ginger - I am so sorry. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers! Your faith is an inspiration.
- Kellye
Thinking of you!
Heather
ok...so i tried posting a comment last week, but i'm realizing that it didn't post for some reason.
i HAVE been thinking about you and praying for you these past few weeks. How blessed you are to have little warner and such supportive family and friends. God bless you
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